Happy birthday to my favorite person in this world

I love you so much 

 You are the best thing in my life.  my heart loves you so much.  It's beautiful and hurtful at the same time.  Why do i feel like crying when i think of you,  not because of sadness i cry,  But cause of the feeling of affection between us,  It's so sweet. i'd die for it Guess, i am lucky enough to have such a sweet person in my life And i wonder most of my time if you feel the same Islam i have so much to say but not so much words  In short i am in love  My obsession is a person  It kills me inside  I am sorry if i call you too much, or say i love you too much  It's just uncontrollable  Cause i also feel like i don't say it enough  I never met you before but why do i feel like I see you everyday  Tell me, please, do you feel that too?  Cause when i am all alone i think of you When i am with my friends i think of you When i am soooo happy i think of you When i am extremely sad i think of you When i do nothin...

 29/12/2022 I woke up this morning and i regretted waking up Cause i had the best dream ever Where you were in It felt so real I smelt you, i touched you, i went to places with you In that dream i was so close to you I was... Omg i wanna cry so bad why you dont answer me You make me overthink a lot Like a looot

 Think of me more Cause i feel lonely In this world where everyone think of someone But no one chose me Do you know how it feel like to be so lonely? Think of me more You are a little bit bored i am little bit tired You don't have to talk We have been using words for so long now i chose the silence  Palms so cold I just need a reason to get higher People feeling things they don't know how to fight them I hear some screams i dont know how to erase them Kiss me less and hug me less you know I've been lying Big mistakes made me small Now i am nearly vanished Purple eyes with dirty lies I think i am an avatar with no reason to sacrifice  Like a brilliant moon tarnished with blood  I feel safe inside your house  You chose to go, i chose to hide  I am the queen of your land you assume  I told you.. you over estimated me I am just a girl who plays the role  But please forgive  My time is fading  And i don't have enough words to explain  So...

 My heart is inches far aways from yours Although our bodies  has that reciprocated urge to collide  Like been able to kiss with an open mouth, i want to kiss you without closing my eyes Enjoying the mixture desires, seeing you, touching you, tasting you...  I feel my tears stoked in the back of my eyes causing urges that i never knew was capable of having and for sure My chest hurt And yours is hurting But lemme feed you with pleasure  I want to embrace your birth marks I want to touch you in the most insecure part of yours, feel it beyond my lips I know there is nothing left to see here  Just Blinded by painful scars  Scars no one can sees I want to turn 18,and go to another city, and call you to stay near me There wont be no obstacle then I wanna be there when you want to smoke 2 pack of cigarettes because you feel sad I want to be there when you go watch the moon at night and hold your hands when it's cold outside I wont be able to miss you then Al...

 Once more, I must write about you, as all of my thoughts are about you Glimpses of you are everywhere  I can't move, i cant cope  I am just here trying to capture you with my eyes  Love in a photograph  But you are so far i can't fly to you  So powerless to show up Coexisting with feelings I feel at night when i think of you  A mixture of sorrow and pleasure Like i want to be on top of you crying  I want to feel your touch over my skin Your hands exploring me like a map you can't read You are the person with no face in the fake scenes i make  Yet, the hero of my chapter  There is a pire connection between us, you feel it too?  Cause when you cry I can hear you And i wonder why your eyes are so tired from seeing the light  But let me take control and cure you I want us to collide. taking all your pain and make it mine.  Look at you in the eyes, galaxies i see An allegory of nothing and all the things  I wanna make you...

 My two favorite persons are leaving one found another girl to love And the other one is thinking of quiting life I feel so powerless  I cry a lot lately I've never though that i can cry this much My eyes just produce tears without my permission 6 octobre 2022

 YOU CAN DO SO MUCH A ISLAM. YOU CAN DO SO MUCH. I KNOW YOU ARE BROKEN, I KNOW YOU ARE SO EMPTY TO THE POINT THAT YOU MIGH HURT YOURSELF AND STILL ITS WONT HURT AT ALL. I KNOW YOU ARE DESTROYED, AND FUCKED UP. I FEEL YOU. I FEEL EVERYTHING. YOU ARE MY OTHER HALF IN THIS WORLD. READ THIS WITH YOUR HEART PLEASE,IK YOU TOO TIRED AND DONE WITH THIS, I KNOW YOU WONT BE CONVINCED WITH A SINGLE WORD I SAY, I WISH MY WORDS MEANS SO MUCH TO YOU LIKE YOUR WORDS DOES TO ME. you are so young, handsome, smart, lovely, pure, kind, the best human I've ever talked too, i love you so much, even more than the people around me. 3a9el x7al the problems you had to pass through? Wax 3a9el?w kolxi kimxi and you start to live again, you die and then you start to feel again, and again, and again. I became happy when i heard that you want to go abroad, tbh i wanted you to distance yourself from everything that hurts you, or that remind you of the pain. But idk what you fuckin mean by ending it there, if you...

 I miss you so bad . You cross my mind a lot, like when i am happy i think of you, when i am sad i think of you, when i feel nothing i think of you, you are just a part of me idk, i really like that tho, cause you are the only person that i dont avoid thinking about, i hope you are doing well. Oh no, i pray all the time that you are okey, and even if you are not You will be, and even if you don't believe it, it will happen cause nothing, absolutely nothing is stronger than you. You know, lemme tell you a naked truth, "you are that hero in every movie i watch, you are that principal character that i fall in love with in every book i read, you are that esthetic person in my life that i choose to think of when i listen to music and watch the sunrise, you are the person i though about every dark night at the beach. Here is it, my naked truth hahaha. I am sorry i go and dissappear for too long, i m sorry if i wasn't there when you were down during this period. I bet you miss my...

 The first day we spoke to each other, remember? Huh, i checked your profile and went like this boy is so damn hot, hahhahah but you also talked to me admiring my writings which made me super happy, you were the only one who understood my psychology, you understood the pain, the melancholy i felt in my first posts, I was glad that there is someone who understood my feelings, so damn specifically like they felt it too. I've never wanted to end the conversation with you, really! And also everytime i write something lunatic just to get that mesmerizing comment from you, its funny how a person you never met made me feel that way, like i needed you badly to the point that I'd absolutely choose you over and over beyond all the things, despite your age, the distance, and the lack of awkwardness sometimes.  Slowly slowly, texting you went from normal to a habit, i felt something, actually many things. I felt the telepathy, and i beleived in it for the first time, i felt that my heart ...